A lazy Sunday afternoon

Hanging out with a new friend for a few days this week- coffee led to a walk around the bird sanctuary, dinner at Chai Pani and late afternoon at the Skybar. He smokes my brand- the familiar lime green American Spirits... And still I'm not smoking. Today is 14 days. I still have the desire for one- with coffee, and after food especially - the Chantix helps, but the moodiness and sudden unprovoked rage have hit a few times. Being aware helps.

There is nothing to educate me more about myself and areas needing improvement within, than with hanging out and interacting with another human. The intimate connection of sharing time, space, stories, meals, etc has a way of illuminating internally things that may need my attention, work and change.

On the flip side, there is something healing and soothing about holding someone, sleeping entwined, cuddling, smooching- it really does my brain a world of good. 

The lessons continue. I am thankful to be teachable today. We shall see where this goes. I am thankful to not be my former self, rushing ahead, getting lost and creating havoc.