A beautiful day that finds me in town. I'm missing Home on the Hill today ...

I drove into town to see a friend and go to their yard sale - as I drove down my old street I spied the couple who bought my house last year. We had not yet met.



I stopped, introduced myself and spent the next hour walking around the yard, and seeing what they have done.



I had dreaded meeting them and have avoided doing so. I am glad that spirit had other plans. As my friend rightly noted, it feels like closure to a hurt.



So I am basking in the sunshine, sipping coffee and avoiding smoking... No casualties yet 😉

It is the last day of May, 2014. I am on day five of not smoking. This is my second attempt this year to reclaim my nonsmoking identity. Not smoking remains one of the most difficult things I have encountered. Walking away from drugs and alcohol was much easier. I am a little irritable today, and have tried to avoid people in my off hours to lessen my opportunities to practice acceptance and not bitch slap some idiot. I owe no amends as of yet. It seems to be working...

I have enlisted Chantix as an aid in this process. I have had success with it in the past. I have also had the desire to drive off of a bridge at a high speed while taking it. I have not had such thoughts this time. The Farmers Almanac suggested May 26 as a good quit day, so I latched on. It feel like it will take this time, but the urge and desire is still present. It seems harder this go round than when I quit in 2008. I maintained 18 months as a nonsmoker before the fear of surgery found me back to one and half plus pack  day in short order. 

So as I prepare for bed, I am devouring a few cookies. I am thankful that another day has unfolded in a lovely way, that some amazing folks have crossed my path, and that frogs are serenading me.

A friend and I went on a photo outing in the River Arts District. Thom and I discovered many beautiful things that day- including this sage advice. I smile,a keen knowing smile, because I know this one word speaks very loudly to me, my path, my journey. Thank you Thom W- That remains a favorite day on my list of favorite days :-)