Confusion in my world

So I have been praying for a meaningful connection for quite some time, going over in my mind the traits, character and type of man I'd like to get to know.

As part of this process I have also had the opportunity to see what traits I possess that can be improved, discarded or honed in an effort to be a better connection.

And while I have been dating, searching, hoping for a connection, it has been elusive at best.

About a year ago a friend gave me a sparkley bag with some dried leaves in it. His instructions for me were to burn the leaves when I was ready to fall in love. I accepted his thoughtful gift and really thought nothing more of it.

A recent cold and rainy weekend brought the bag out of hiding as I cleared away some leftovers from the move. I had built a fire on this particular July day and decided what the hell. I untied the bag and gazed into the flames. I spoke out loud that I was ready to fall in love as I threw the leaves into the flames.

The next day I started interacting with a young man via social media. I had gone out for a solitary hike above Graveyard Fields. The day was lovely, serene and allowed me to strip down and bask in the sunlight next to a small stream.

I came back to my car to find some flirty words from a stranger. We chatted for a few days. We agreed to meet for coffee, he'd prefer tea. We met at Dobra Tea on Lexington Avenue.

I had a photo and some words we had exchanged, but really wasn't sure what to expect.

In walked a handsome young man, a little unkempt, hair mused, with a guitar case.

We sat on Persian carpets and slowly got to know each other. That was July 10.

He has grown on me. Tremendously.