Day 5, not smoking. No casualties, but I do have a list of candidates...

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It is the last day of May, 2014. I am on day five of not smoking. This is my second attempt this year to reclaim my nonsmoking identity. Not smoking remains one of the most difficult things I have encountered. Walking away from drugs and alcohol was much easier. I am a little irritable today, and have tried to avoid people in my off hours to lessen my opportunities to practice acceptance and not bitch slap some idiot. I owe no amends as of yet. It seems to be working...

I have enlisted Chantix as an aid in this process. I have had success with it in the past. I have also had the desire to drive off of a bridge at a high speed while taking it. I have not had such thoughts this time. The Farmers Almanac suggested May 26 as a good quit day, so I latched on. It feel like it will take this time, but the urge and desire is still present. It seems harder this go round than when I quit in 2008. I maintained 18 months as a nonsmoker before the fear of surgery found me back to one and half plus pack  day in short order. 

So as I prepare for bed, I am devouring a few cookies. I am thankful that another day has unfolded in a lovely way, that some amazing folks have crossed my path, and that frogs are serenading me.