Wednesday

Wednesday, fun day. A long day at work followed by coffee at sbux - Griffin joins me and we chat. James appears. It is our first meeting since the 24th. Conversation is strained and communication doesn't really occur as the audience doesn't allow for heart based discourse.

We leave to meet a friend- we three share dinner at Thai Tara. It is delicious.

We part ways with our friend and head back to his car. We go to the botanical gardens - it is dark. We sit on a bench and talk. We cry. He plays music. A beautiful and sad song. We kiss. It all floods back, and he comes home with me.

We talk and fall asleep. I feel safe. I feel something major has shifted, but my feelings for him are still very much alive.

Morning comes too early. I drop him off as I head to work. I love this man and still I know he will break my heart...